Big Sister Alert!!!

Giulietta is proud to announce that she is going to become a 

BIG SISTER!!

What she doesn't know or understand is the story of this 

new journey our family is about to embark!

On Tuesday May 18th, 2010 Ryan and I went to our 

first doctors appointment. At that time, our doctor informed

us that I was carrying Twins! However, our surprise and 

excitement was short lived as the doctor explained that 

even though we saw a small beating heart, Baby B 

was half the size as Baby A. She went on to tell us that

there was a possibility that Baby B would STOP growing

and virtually end up absorbing into the placenta. 

As we left the office, I held back the tears even though I 

knew in my heart Baby B wasn't going to make it to 

its Birth Date. I knew that Baby A would end up being

a singleton, a survivor, a twin for a short few weeks! 

The two week waiting period was excruciating and 

tiring. We debated back and forth whether or not we 

would have the pleasure of two more sweet babies, and 

started slightly planning what we would do if they 

both made it. We prayed, we hoped, and we fell

in love with the idea of G having two more siblings. 

**First Ultrasound with only Baby A**

Yesterday, June 2, 2010, we visited Dr. Chu again to 

find out the verdict of the babies. The questions in all

our minds was "Would Baby B still be there?" 

Sadly, Baby B has stopped! Our little life, which was so

new and fragile, didn't make it! We watched as the doctor

showed us Baby A, the only living baby, and explained

how healthy and perfect looking he/she is.

As I sat there watching my new baby wiggle around on the 

screen, I couldn't help but feel cheated, wronged, and 

devastated. Under other circumstances, most Mama's would 

feel excited and overjoyed. Instead, I just wanted to cry, go 

home and hug my sweet Giulietta, and mourn the loss of my 

Baby B! 

**Second Ultrasound with Baby A on the left

 & Baby B on the right**

After a lot of tears and the overwhelming feeling of loss, I 

have realized that God only gives us things that we can 

handle. I know in my heart that this was meant to be. For

whatever reason, we were blessed with two for a short 

period, but will be blessed with one forever. 

Baby B will live on in our hearts, while Baby A is blessed

with the miracle of life. I know it will take a while for the

 heartache to stop for the loss of one of our angels,

but we feel very blessed to have one that appears to be

growing healthy and strong! 

And, as you can see our sweet Giulietta is delighted to 

become a BIG SISTER!!